HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUEWEI!!

Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to XueWei!
Happy Birthday to you!


Wahahahahaz, i get this privilege for being the administrator... =)

To my fren of like hmm..... i think got a decade or more le, happy birthday to you gal! One year older, one more year of God's grace! God bless ya!!

i'm strong in You, Father

Ok, I read disong’s blog..he said that he saw pics on yubao laoshi’s farewell on ching’s blog..so I went to check it out too, feeling really excited, cuz I HAVEN seen ANY pics of AGPC peeps after I left!

As I was looking at the pics, I could actually felt the same as Disong! And before I noe it, 眼泪就一直流下来。=( 心情非常的矛盾。我看到大家一起穿上白衣，一起去吃prata，然后一起合照。以前，看到这些合照时，我会快快去找我的脸，看我笑得好不好看。刚刚在看照片时，虽然很不想去想，但潜意识里，我在想，sigh,没有我。看来我错过的真不少。你们过得好吗？你们主日学上到哪里？在诗班学了什么新歌？我有好多想知道的东西，但我发现，我什么都不知道。昨天我跟宏伟聊天时，才跟他了解了一点。(so thanks hongwei!) 不过还是会觉得，我离你们好远哦。我好怀念与你们在一起的感觉。但似乎有一点点忘记，跟你们在一起时是什么样的感觉，怎么办？。就因为这样，我好担心，你们是不是也忘了我在你们身旁的感觉了？雪薇回去之后，会不会像是个“新朋友”？ 一天一天过去后，你们会不会习惯我不在的感觉呢？

Sigh, 不好意思，好像有点emo 了。

虽然如此，我想告诉自己和棣嵩，虽然我们好像“错过”了很多东西，但其实我们并没真正的错过，因为我们还是会回去的，我们会再度拥有。我们有曾经，我们有以后，我们有永恒的时间。所以cheer up k!

我相信，我们的朋友也在跟我们一样，盼望着我们回家的那一天。

看着你们年轻、开怀的笑脸，虽然我很想分享你们的快乐，但我依然为你们高兴！will be praying here in hangzhou for every single one of u! 继续为神事奉！要珍惜每一次事奉的机会。因为，来多这里，我才明白可以事奉神是一件很宝贝的事情。虽然这段时间，我无法在诗班（Alto Rocks! hope u gals are doing fine!）、团契(hang on, my dear zhiyuans! And my cell grp! ahhhh)、敬拜团 (miss playing lovely music with all the musicians!) 等等来事奉神，但我会在这里以学业、以我的待人处事、做事方式、言行举止等来事奉神！

期待回家的那一天！我们再一起事奉 ok?

God bless you, my loved ones in Singapore!

“雪薇”乃是“雪中的蔷薇”，在神里面，雪薇会屹立不倒，坚韧不拔。
我将带着更独立、更成熟、更坚强的雪薇回去见你们的！ =)

但那等候耶和华的，必从新得力，他们必如鹰展翅上腾，他们奔跑却不困 倦，行走却不疲乏 。
but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary,they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:31

无形中的压力。。。

我曾说要跟你们分享关于读书的东西。我记得我说，我有要考好成绩的压力。今天就更深入的与你们分享。
这个压力，虽然我是多么的不想要，但它是存在的。我朋友说，那是无形中的压力，是每个top student都会面对的。
我在义安中文系过去五个学期的日子，很感谢神给我相当优异的成绩。他看到我的努力，看到我的付出，看到我对中文的热爱。我是非常尽心、尽力做我的每一份作业。
但是，在这个过程中，形成同学们对我的印象——雪薇=聪明/用功/top student。特别是top student。他们是没有恶意的，但是我觉得这个封号太严重了。对我而言，我不在乎什么top student，我只是尽心做我应该做的，我用功是为了见证神。我也不是特别厉害的人物，我不是个聪明的人，IQ不高。但是，总有一些人误解我，认为我什么都会，所以无论什么事，都认为我必定能胜任。就因为这样，他们会认为，我没有资格说：“I feel so stressed!，这个功课真难做！”等等。因为这些从一个“top student”口中说出，在他们耳里是风凉话，是虚伪的话。所以很多东西，我放在心中，无法诉苦，滋味其实非常不好受。与此同时，他们会认为，我什么都ok，但其实我内心却是有一种胆怯，因为我知道我的能力其实是有限的，特别来到中国后，我发现，水平真的提高了不少，老师要求得非常高，比新加坡老师的要求高得多。所以每一份作业都相当的困难。想到这些作业，我的心里就会很怕，很dreadful的感觉。我想，万一我真的做不好，那岂不是会给人笑？ 虽然这种想法好像很世俗，但是的确是人之常情。我也想不去在乎，但无形中，它还是存在的。所以我感到非常矛盾。。。
但是！我“想通了”。我已下定决心，不再去想拿不拿好成绩的事情了。我觉得没有必要再去想。因为我告诉神，我相信他。我告诉他，我把每一份作业放在他的手中，我祈求他给我智慧和力量去handle这些作业。我只管尽力去做，然后把成绩交给神。无论成绩是好是坏，我还是会感恩的。我也会学习不要在乎人怎么说，因为他们说什么并不重要。最重要的是神怎么看我。当然，我也必须带着神的智慧与人相处，只是我要定睛仰望神，将我的盼望建立在神身上。你们也可放心，我没有被同学排斥，那些误解我的人只是一小部分。跟我比较要好的同学，对我没有这方面的误解。因为他们都知道，也看得出，我是没有野心的人。他们也知道我用功，也是为了我的神。
这是我小小的分享。请你们为我祷告，让我能撑完多10周的学习！

I commit to live free from worry in the name of Jesus. I cast the whole of my cares –all my anxieties, all my worries, all my concerns—once and for all on You. You sustain me. You will never allow the consistently righteous to be moved—made to slip, fall, or fail! Amen!
--Prayers that avail much

苏州

We went to Suzhou on the 14th..It isn't as fun as Shanghai, but i'm still happy to see see how Suzhou looks like..
以下就是我们的行程：

新加坡工业园区：
We didn't get too see much on the 工业园区, cuz we were only driving around the place (no time to go down walk walk)..but its really very singapore! like this pic looks like some area in Spore yea? so cool right! its nice to see singapore-liked stuff in a foreign country =)


Then we went to 寒山寺，its like a temple..but its now more of an tourist attraction rather than a place of worship..but still, there is people coming to 拜拜..
so here are some pictures taken at 寒山寺..

I like the river! got the 小桥流水人家 feeling..

This is some area in the Han Shan Si..see the pagoda? ya, we went up to look see also..

this is a view from the pagoda..these buildings are little temples of Han Shan Si..so the whole place is quite big..

this is me n xuan n her totty (its a soft toy tortoise, she loves tortoise!) at Han Shan Si..

After which, we went for lunch at some restaurant.. then to a place called 留园..its a man-made kind of 有山有水的地方.. on the way, i took a pic of this:

there are little rivers like this here and there in Suzhou..i think its quite pretty..

So this is entrance of 留园, the outside n the inside is very different..one moment u are along a busy street..then when u cross the entrance, you are into another world..
See what i mean?

but i think its quite nice though! anyway, its 苏州四大名园之一!

pic of me, xuan, duan at Liu Yuan...

This is one part of Liu Yuan too..the stone carvings very nice hor!

Xuan, me and huiwen (my fren cum neighbour)..

After Liu Yuan, we went to a place where they sell pearl stuff..got pearl jewelleries, pearl cream, pearl powder..No pics cuz not allowed to take =(

Then we head back to hangzhou..3 hrs plus bus ride!

this sunset pic is taken on the way back..then we zzzz all the way back to hangzhou..

Yup, that's about it!

I trust in You Lord, with all of my heart and lean not to my own understanding. In all of my ways I acknowledge You, and You direct my paths.

Thank You Father!

上海之行

Went to shanghai on the 13th (3 hrs bus ride!)..
so here are some pics which i took throughout the shanghai journey.. Anyway, shanghai is a nice place, its smt like singapore..can see tall buildings here and there..a very advanced place..so things there aren't as cheap as hangzhou's...
Anyway, we spent most of our time in the central business district..


上海的高楼 (在巴士上拍的照片)

shanghai's roads..i am quite amazed by this..the infrastructure very well built wor..

ok, 我们第一个地点就是上海外滩。。

you can see the famous "Oriental Pearl Tower"（东方明珠塔） among the buildings..

me and chieling

then we went shopping around the same area....

followed by lunch, then shopping again!
we went to 上海老街 to shop.. its around 20 mins bus ride from the CBD..

along the way back to the 外滩, i took a pic of this 南浦大桥，really cool!

我们晚上的时间基本上是在欣赏上海的夜景，这也是全程的焦点！因为上海滩的夜景真的很美！

First, we went up the oriental pearl tower!

then these are some pictures taken from the tower! 隔着一片玻璃，所以拍得不是很清楚。。。
但还是很美对吗？

me at the tower!

me and weiting...

then we went on a boat ride along the river! super cool!!! i was super excited can! took alot of pics, but can only upload a few....

very nice right!

me and chie

me and some other frens on the boat.. we look so happy! =)

will upload suzhou pics for you all to see soon..

meanwhile, please pray for me ok!

I am getting very stressed about my work..assignments just keep coming in, and datelines are so close! i was quite down yesterday, mainly because of work (didn't expect it to be so hard to handle), and partly is because i was quite emo la..missing Spore and stuff..and the weather is like so cold (turned autumn already)..ya..but thank God i am feeling better today le..sort of cheered up le, but still feel a little sian..

Anyway, God told me this morning thru "prayers that avail much", He ask me to cast all my burdens on Him! so nice right? a very timely reminder indeed..i will learn to do that, its not as easy though, cuz i realise its like human nature to tend to look at our troubles and not turn our eyes upon the Lord..so yea, i'm still learning to cast ALL my anxieties unto the Lord, and trust Him totally..but i noe no matter what, He's always here yea? ( FJFC!......even though ur heart is filled with fear, it doesn't matter, cuz soon u'll realise, that He's always here) yea, God is always here!

Lord, the newness of the day

Calls me to an untried way;

Let me gladly take the road,

Give me strength to bear my load.
—Anon.
God invites us to burden Him with what burdens us.

好累哦！

its friday already! yeah. kinda fast yea? sry people i din blog last few days, cuz my internet gave me probs again..and was only fixed on wednesday (a internet expert came to help me, he helped me several times until he noes me le..so paiseh)..
then i had project meetings n birthday celebration over the past 2 nights, and when i went back to my hostel, i can only use the net for short short while before 11pm reaches..so sian.......

and sigh, i am like having diarrhoea =( should be the cheesecake (birthday cake for my roomie michelle) which i ate last night..i kept on having the runs this morning during class..i went in and out 3 times till i super malu k! the 3rd time was like after my presentation la! so paiseh. after that, i went back to hostel to rest and sleep..my frens made me sleep too, and forbid me to go for my afternoon class..so here i am using the time to update u guys, and at the same pray ask u guys to pray for me! though I am feeling much better compared to the morning (really thank God), i still feel a little weak..yah..pray that i can get well by tonight! cuz tmr n sunday is our shanghai and suzhou trip! i dun wanna miss it!
and yes, wanna thank God for giving me wonderful frens! they offered me like all sorts of medicine..haha..nicholas gave me plum balls, kehong gave me feng sha pills..chieling had diarrhoea few weeks back, and she offered me her medicine too..etc etc..but what's even touching was that i felt their love! the whole class escorted me back to my room..xuan hugged me..chie bought me porrigde (its nice!, though i am feeling a little hungry now)..and mic ask those who came to knock on our door to keep their voices down while i was trying to fall asleep..etc etc..i feel really blessed..and keep thanking God for them! so u guys dun worry k! i got so many people to take care of me! and God heals, i am sure i'll get well tmr de!
i'll post some pics of shanghai n suzhou when i get back k.. and pray for our trip! thankew!

feeling a little lethargic now..going back to slp le......

PS: thank u xianjie for ur postcard too! felt thrilled to receive something from Singapore! thank you mum n Rs too, for sending me parcels with things which i forgot to bring over! =)

大风吹，吹什么？

吹跟大自然比起来多么渺小的人类。
放了一个星期的假期，今天又回到学校了。但今天的“重头戏”不再开课，而是暴风雨的侵袭。Sigh。因为台风的关系，我们学校也刮起了超冷的强风，还有超大的雨。我们只是从宿舍走到学校，都会全身湿透，而且头发被风吹得很乱。雨伞也被吹得倒反过来。还记得我们上完课后，每个人都在楼下考虑是否要回去宿舍。因为一踏出那幢楼，就马上会被喷得超湿。但是我们呆在学校楼也不是办法，所以就只好chiong出去。我记得那个风的感觉，它除了是刺骨，更是会令人的手脚都快冻僵了。可以感觉到我的双手双脚都麻麻的，然后全身（包括牙齿）也不停地颤抖。它的风强到人也几乎可以被吹走，是真的。我可是用尽全身的力去抵抗那冷酷的风。还好有璇在我身旁扶助我，不然我一定无法前进。风真的强到连那种坚固的玻璃门都可以被它吹开。所以说，当我们回到宿舍后，我们都非常非常非常的狼狈。
我长这么大还是第一次遇到这种情况。新加坡的风雨再怎么强大，也比不上这里的一半。所以我真的很怀念新加坡的好天气。
但是，我相信，就算风再强，雨再大，耶和华永远坐着为王。God is in control！
当然，还是要请你们为我祷告，让我有健康的身体，让我不要着凉！Thanks people…

这是我在宿舍的阳台拍的照片..杭州的暴风雨天..



Anyway, 也是因为台风的关系，昨晚我们整幢宿舍楼停电。一共五次，前面三次是一下下而已。大概20分钟就恢复了。第四次就比较长了，大概1个小时。最后一次是在我们睡觉时发生的。因为冷气自己关掉，所以我们知道又停电了。。。
真是非凡的体验。但我还挺感恩有这种体验。我昨天在黑暗中，用着laptop的灯，写着日记，也写下我的祷告。I really feel very close to God. And I know He was there with me and is here now with me. 主是黑暗中的光芒！

me and duan took a pic in the darkness! see, my camera's flash quite good hor...

haha, i shall blog again soon..assignments start coming in le..so guess won't blog tt often le..cuz lights n electricity will get cut off everynight at 11pm (same as internet)..so must treasure the time to study! jiayou for me k! =)

杭州西湖一游

我们（全部新加坡学生）在9月15日到了杭州西湖一趟。全中国有36个西湖，但清代《冷庐杂识》中说：“天下西湖三十又六，惟杭州最著。”。看样子，算是杭州西湖是最漂亮的。更何况，老话说：“上有天堂，下有苏杭”。能够像天堂般美丽的地方，应该真的不错吧，杭州之美，相信杭州西湖一定有所贡献。去杭州之前，也常常有人跟我说一定要去西湖走一走。所以，我们的西湖一游，我当然是非常期待的！在西湖时，我是多么的感恩，传说中的西湖竟然就摆在我的眼前，而我竟然踏在西湖的土地上！！（棣嵩羡慕吧？哈哈，因为棣嵩说他超想去的）很遗憾的是，我多么希望在新加坡的你们were there with me! 但没关系，就欢迎你们与我再次同游西湖吧！那天我们时间很紧迫，所以只走了西湖的一些地方。人很多，所以也没能好好的拍照，而且因为很多照片都是zoom in拍的所以不是很好看。但还是请你们好好欣赏！=）

这些是我们游西湖的起点。就是我们来到西湖的第一画面:

后来我们就沿着孤山路到西湖里的某一个地方，叫西泠(ling)印社，是很多印seal的地方。

这些是我沿着孤山路所拍的照片：

西泠印社的照片：

墙壁上挂的是玲玲种种的印。。

我们就爬上这些山的“楼梯”：






。。然后来到这里：

这也算是西泠印社的一部分

the act cute pink ladies! (from left: huiwen, me, chieling)

之后我们就走啊走，走去搭船。这些是我路途中拍的照片：

这是我们搭船的地方：

Me n my roomie (best buddy from year 1) 纬璇weixuan (i call her xuan or darling)

我们就是搭这种船：

这些是在船上拍的照片：

我们搭船，主要是要到“九曲桥”去。远处的桥就是九曲桥。这些湖水是西湖的湖中之湖。

要经过这间“房子”，才踏上九曲桥。dunno why but i like this pic alot!!

九曲桥：

me and my roomie 端慧 (i call her duan) at 九曲桥。。

me and duan's bao bei jiahui (aka vava) at 九曲桥。。

我们之后走到了“三潭印月”，这是西湖十景中一其中一景。这是我在百度找到的三潭印月的资料。
三潭印月是西湖三岛中最大的一个岛，又名三潭映月，面积6万平方米。四周围是环形堤埂，岛中有湖，水面划为“田”字形，建有一座九转三回、三十个弯的九曲桥，岛上建筑精致，四时花卉扶疏，有“水上仙子”美称。岛南湖面上有三个石塔鼎足而立，塔高2米，球形塔身中空，有五个小圆孔，有“月光映潭，塔分为三”之说。历来人们将这里比作神话传说中的仙岛，故此岛有“小瀛洲”之称，岛荫凝秀，园林精雅，文脉蕴藉，丰姿绰约，名列西湖十景，尤以仲秋时节空中月、水中月、塔中月与赏月人心中各有寄托的“明月”上下辉映、神思遄飞而向为秋游者所必到。

那三个潭相隔太远了，所以我无法三个都照下来。

这是三潭印月的地图：

这是其中一个潭。。还有鸭子wor。。

me and darling at 三潭印月。。。

后来我们就搭船回去，在船上望向远处，可以看到这座塔。好像很有名的塔，但忘了它叫什么名。

西湖一游就这样结束了。很可惜。因为很多时间我们都是在等。等大家拍好照等等。总之，一大组人去，很难走。我希望在回国之间再找机会去，再慢慢欣赏。

I resist the temptation to be anxious about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything by prayer and petition [definite requests] with thanksgiving continue to make my wants (and the wants of others) known to God. Whatever I ask for in prayer, I believe that it is granted to me, and I will receive it.

--Prayers that avail much